it's the bad(s) that showed me all the good

today started off as a pretty uneventful day.

Mum&Dad went to beaufort in the morning, leaving me and sis at home. FOOD-LESS.

I am NOT gonna lie, was definitely craving for some of THOSE =P

but unfortunately there were limited supplies of raw materials at home, and i was really in the mood to cook. so i just made use of what i have; namely eggs, onions and potatoes.

and guess what i did next.....

screw the "images" but yes, GOOGLE

and i found a few recipes that will allow me to "conjure" something satiable for me stomach =P

so i tried this one out, http://www.food.com/recipe/potatoes-and-eggs-127200 and its really not bad :D

then dusk came and it was time for me to go to work~ everything was fine, then problem started when i wanted to go home. mind you, it was 8pm then...

Something felt wrong with the car, tyres. and then when i stopped the car and checked it out, it was flat. as usual i panicked and call everyone (me immediate family).

Lets just say, i was taken aback by their tone. and when i say that, i meant it in the bad way.

Turns out everything was a silly misunderstanding and i jumped to conclusion way too quickly, thinking that no one cares or gives a damn bout me. cant help it, they were giving such vibes.

When i reached home after my dad helped me change the tyres (he&sis came from home), that moment when i saw the food that they bought for me on the table i felt so guilty for having such thoughts.

Spend 1hr plus eating my crabs ;) then just when i finished my dinner, i got an MMS. My very 1st easter egg :) I dont have this specific word to describe my feelings/emotions, probably due to the lack of vocab. But, i was just really really touched.. that he actually remembered it =') and he actually went and make that easter egg even tho i was so mean just now =( im sorry...

ANYWAYS~ what i want to say here is just that, i feel so bad that i treat the people that loves me very harshly. i treat them depending on my mood. and yes, that is pretty bad =/ and i sometimes take them for granted. And so i hope people out there who doesnt realise that u too, are doing the same thing. Please self-reflect x)

#NoteToSelf- remind yourself not to take people for granted.

Hello April~

There goes the 1st week of April~

4 months of 2012 has just gone by like THAT *snap*

yea, its that fast. time went by even faster without school.

Amazing, the speed that everything is going~ this morning i woke up 8.++ now? 5.49pm.. hmm~
but overall today is an amazing day =)

so 7th of April, a day worth remembering =)

started of with panicking whether yik will come to my place on time for the USM test, and he did fortunately. But the =/ part of it is, the test was supposedly at SM Teknik Likas but they changed the venue without informing us. so thank god for having friends during time of crisis, so 3 of us (Johnson, Yik and I) rushed to Maktab Sabah, and thank god for the kind invigilators that gave us extra time =)

then we head to Suria, for our class gathering ~

I'm just really glad to have enter form 6 for the friends i have now. who would have thought that our class would be so together after months of separation.. out of 14 people, only 2 never joined.. whereas the rest will show up every single time there's a gathering. yup! i love them all =)

so i gave the present that i've been wanting to give Isna since i have no idea how many B.C ago. and gave Mel her documents back.. seirously, i think she doesnt even care if i burnt it or something =P but all is well :)

then went for some karaoke session~ that was great =)

I went home early tho, cause i had to follow my dad, and then we end up buying Salmon from this place. and then we had THAT for tea. it was REALLY good! and so worth it... i can imagine how much those japanese restaurant earn... so little, so expensive.

everyone who loves sashimi should really just do it themselves :D

and so i was looking through blogs and i came across this blog which is kinda okay, its nice :)

http://bestquotesfb.blogspot.com/

well, one of it's post really made me think about how certain people

treats certain people. No names here of course, but i cant help that several names really came to mind. I wish these people will have a chance to read this, to realise their mistakes.

NEVER ignore the person that LOVES YOU!

because you don't get anything by loving someone else,

but receiving love is one of th greatest things on earth.

Never ignore or make fun of the person that loves you...

Because you will make yourself not worth loving, and not worth living for.

And im not just saying like girl-boy love, of course that too~ it could be any kind of love, friendship, parents, siblings. This happens everywhere, and yea. its sad when this loving person gets hurt and is shunned by people, and then idk, may be one day, they'll stop loving.

The world needs more love.

girl's dilemma

when instructed for a formal wear, interview style :

questions to answer:

1) one piece or two piece

2) if two piece- slacks or skirt

3) if skirt- what kind, above knee or below knee

4) shoes- flats or heels

see~ so many questions T_T

2012

so goodbye 2011

and

HELLO 2012!!! make this an awesome year for me please and thank you! :D

STPM OVER!

this post is like sooo 4 days late :P

anyways~ idk with STPM now completely out of the picture, except for the results part.... life feels so...empty.. its a weird feeling but yea.

i dont know, may be due to the absence of people. well you see i'm an extrovert and so extrovert draws energy from people.. so pretty much like some kind of supernatural being, BUT in a good way.. xP (right~)

soooo yeaa~ all i've been doing is just helping my mum out in the office.. stock, cash, teaching new people bout the system and bla3~ and i feel so lifeless... like, lack of accomplishment, lack of something that make me look forward to life...

which is actually pretty sad T_T so yeaaa~

then this morning actually, its more like YESTERDAY morning, cause its already past 12 x) i just woke up after 4 hours of sleep. slept at 4am woke up at 8 =.= anyways~ woke up feeling like "i need to get out of this place and seriously get to a place that people actually want/need me" like, a place where at least my presence is of an importance, welcoming at least? sooo yeaa~ hence why i book a flight to BRU :) after consulting with my *coughs* board of directors ;) their replies were VERY satisfying. heheh

so off i go to brunei next week. prolly one of my most spontaneous, unplanned plan... i mean, the trip is next week and still dont know who's pciking me up, but with all them bitches that can drive, i'm not worried at all ~

actually i dont plan to go for this trip since i'm going to kL on the 5th of jan.. but then i really cant stand it.. the lack of energy, life... yea, that!

love

love broke them when they were searching for it...

and surprisingly that's how they found each other,

i suppose that was how they clicked as well,

2 people from different background and an obvious language barrier

love helped mend their broken hearts,

and may be thats how things works out sometimes...

through looking for love, they fought, lost their battle, and found love on the way to recovery..

i dont know what is the status of their relationship...

i can only assume cause i have no rights to ask,

but whatever it is, i wish them both happy.

i wish him happy, and her as well

:)

when i tell myself i'm gonna study

1) get out of my bed

2) checks facebook and twitter

3) see/look/read some interesting things from those 2 websites

4) wasted a few minutes on those websites

5) feels a lil tired (eyes) so go back to the bed for a "take 5"

6) repeat step 1 to 5 for 200 times

7) FINALLY, gets out of my bed, and keep repeating this very line to myself

"I WILL NOW GO DOWNSTAIR WITHOUT STOPPING IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER"

and guess what peeps, this is just the first part :P

its a whole different chapter when i get my arse downstair, one that include:

1) no snacking

2) no looking for things (cause somehow i'll always end up upstairs, AGAIN then refer steps 2 to 5)

3) no piano

yesh, i am THAT good when it comes to disciplining myself