This is not a drive by

Train- Drive By, a catchy good song =)

to hell my horrible week :) i have a feeling this will be an awesome weekend and an awesome weekend it shall be! x)

i dont actually have a plan in mind, as in i have no idea what to write, i just log into blogspot and just started typing. weirds.

i'll just update some eye-catchy pictures and nice2 quotes, credits to tumblr ^^

its weird but i love these things, must be due to ely's influence

i just love to receive them tho, not make them ^^

VERY true! =O

super duper duper true. and most case is just cause i'm "low on battery" =P

numb

i dont know why i cried but i did.

tears started flowing when i finished my sentence,

"may be you could have been happier if you went for xxx instead"

and after that i didnt know how i was feeling. sadness? shocked? i dont know. may be, i couldnt identify it. but after a while i went numb. like total numb-ness even though i know you were trying really hard to salvage the situation, emotion.

This is gonna be some real shitty day. and lets hope it doesnt drag into week.

Fuck curiousity, why did i have to go to that end to see whats there?

Fuck calling, why did i have to pick up the phone.

Fuck life, why am i still alive?

seriously, sometimes i wish i can just die off somewhere. assassinated, painless death. yea, im not a big fan of pain, sue me. Being human is just so tiring.

so thats RM 350 burn for cars, stupid cars.

okay, so may be its my fault, my fault for not being alert and attentive enough. Unfocus-ed enough on the roads. should have went out of the housing areas and be at the highway when it happened, then i probably wouldnt survive, and so i wouldnt be sitting here on this miserable day, typing this sad shit. its not even sad, its more like, venting of anger. and heck, i dont even know what im so pissed and angry, and mad bout. But i just am.

So, i might as well fuck hormones and mood swings too.

Anger probably elevated due to some idiot that caused me to knock my cheek bone on the edge of the table. Ouch alright, so close to my fuckin right eye. i might as well just go blind...

I really have no idea what i can get out of venting my anger on a blog, but whatever, its not like i have a choice. i dont feel like talking to anyone.

it's the bad(s) that showed me all the good

today started off as a pretty uneventful day.

Mum&Dad went to beaufort in the morning, leaving me and sis at home. FOOD-LESS.

I am NOT gonna lie, was definitely craving for some of THOSE =P

but unfortunately there were limited supplies of raw materials at home, and i was really in the mood to cook. so i just made use of what i have; namely eggs, onions and potatoes.

and guess what i did next.....

screw the "images" but yes, GOOGLE

and i found a few recipes that will allow me to "conjure" something satiable for me stomach =P

so i tried this one out, http://www.food.com/recipe/potatoes-and-eggs-127200 and its really not bad :D

then dusk came and it was time for me to go to work~ everything was fine, then problem started when i wanted to go home. mind you, it was 8pm then...

Something felt wrong with the car, tyres. and then when i stopped the car and checked it out, it was flat. as usual i panicked and call everyone (me immediate family).

Lets just say, i was taken aback by their tone. and when i say that, i meant it in the bad way.

Turns out everything was a silly misunderstanding and i jumped to conclusion way too quickly, thinking that no one cares or gives a damn bout me. cant help it, they were giving such vibes.

When i reached home after my dad helped me change the tyres (he&sis came from home), that moment when i saw the food that they bought for me on the table i felt so guilty for having such thoughts.

Spend 1hr plus eating my crabs ;) then just when i finished my dinner, i got an MMS. My very 1st easter egg :) I dont have this specific word to describe my feelings/emotions, probably due to the lack of vocab. But, i was just really really touched.. that he actually remembered it =') and he actually went and make that easter egg even tho i was so mean just now =( im sorry...

ANYWAYS~ what i want to say here is just that, i feel so bad that i treat the people that loves me very harshly. i treat them depending on my mood. and yes, that is pretty bad =/ and i sometimes take them for granted. And so i hope people out there who doesnt realise that u too, are doing the same thing. Please self-reflect x)

#NoteToSelf- remind yourself not to take people for granted.

Hello April~

There goes the 1st week of April~

4 months of 2012 has just gone by like THAT *snap*

yea, its that fast. time went by even faster without school.

Amazing, the speed that everything is going~ this morning i woke up 8.++ now? 5.49pm.. hmm~
but overall today is an amazing day =)

so 7th of April, a day worth remembering =)

started of with panicking whether yik will come to my place on time for the USM test, and he did fortunately. But the =/ part of it is, the test was supposedly at SM Teknik Likas but they changed the venue without informing us. so thank god for having friends during time of crisis, so 3 of us (Johnson, Yik and I) rushed to Maktab Sabah, and thank god for the kind invigilators that gave us extra time =)

then we head to Suria, for our class gathering ~

I'm just really glad to have enter form 6 for the friends i have now. who would have thought that our class would be so together after months of separation.. out of 14 people, only 2 never joined.. whereas the rest will show up every single time there's a gathering. yup! i love them all =)

so i gave the present that i've been wanting to give Isna since i have no idea how many B.C ago. and gave Mel her documents back.. seirously, i think she doesnt even care if i burnt it or something =P but all is well :)

then went for some karaoke session~ that was great =)

I went home early tho, cause i had to follow my dad, and then we end up buying Salmon from this place. and then we had THAT for tea. it was REALLY good! and so worth it... i can imagine how much those japanese restaurant earn... so little, so expensive.

everyone who loves sashimi should really just do it themselves :D

and so i was looking through blogs and i came across this blog which is kinda okay, its nice :)

http://bestquotesfb.blogspot.com/

well, one of it's post really made me think about how certain people

treats certain people. No names here of course, but i cant help that several names really came to mind. I wish these people will have a chance to read this, to realise their mistakes.

NEVER ignore the person that LOVES YOU!

because you don't get anything by loving someone else,

but receiving love is one of th greatest things on earth.

Never ignore or make fun of the person that loves you...

Because you will make yourself not worth loving, and not worth living for.

And im not just saying like girl-boy love, of course that too~ it could be any kind of love, friendship, parents, siblings. This happens everywhere, and yea. its sad when this loving person gets hurt and is shunned by people, and then idk, may be one day, they'll stop loving.

The world needs more love.

girl's dilemma

when instructed for a formal wear, interview style :

questions to answer:

1) one piece or two piece

2) if two piece- slacks or skirt

3) if skirt- what kind, above knee or below knee

4) shoes- flats or heels

see~ so many questions T_T

2012

so goodbye 2011

and

HELLO 2012!!! make this an awesome year for me please and thank you! :D