i wish..

i seriously wish...
-i could go back in time and re-do my whole form five.
-i studied hard and used my forecast to apply for scholarships
-i studied hard enough to get me 10A+ for my spm
-i didnt fool around in my form five years and actually studied and prepare properly
-someone could have guide me when i was so lost in all these applying to wherever shits.
-i know where am i going in the future
-my sis wont make the same mistake as me
-i could get a scholarship
-i could get in the college i want
-that even if i didnt get in the college, i could get in matrix
-my living in my happy-land will not end
- i could be one of those people who doesnt have financial issues
-some kids could appreciate what they have and stop being such brats.
-that i dont have to grow up so soon
-i would sleep and wake up tomorrow morning free of all these problems.

life's so fucked up right now. its prolly god's way of granting your wish of wanting to grow up fast when ur 7 years old. its then that you truly realise how serious the world is when it comes to money.