STPM OVER!

this post is like sooo 4 days late :P

anyways~ idk with STPM now completely out of the picture, except for the results part.... life feels so...empty.. its a weird feeling but yea.

i dont know, may be due to the absence of people. well you see i'm an extrovert and so extrovert draws energy from people.. so pretty much like some kind of supernatural being, BUT in a good way.. xP (right~)

soooo yeaa~ all i've been doing is just helping my mum out in the office.. stock, cash, teaching new people bout the system and bla3~ and i feel so lifeless... like, lack of accomplishment, lack of something that make me look forward to life...

which is actually pretty sad T_T so yeaaa~

then this morning actually, its more like YESTERDAY morning, cause its already past 12 x) i just woke up after 4 hours of sleep. slept at 4am woke up at 8 =.= anyways~ woke up feeling like "i need to get out of this place and seriously get to a place that people actually want/need me" like, a place where at least my presence is of an importance, welcoming at least? sooo yeaa~ hence why i book a flight to BRU :) after consulting with my *coughs* board of directors ;) their replies were VERY satisfying. heheh

so off i go to brunei next week. prolly one of my most spontaneous, unplanned plan... i mean, the trip is next week and still dont know who's pciking me up, but with all them bitches that can drive, i'm not worried at all ~

actually i dont plan to go for this trip since i'm going to kL on the 5th of jan.. but then i really cant stand it.. the lack of energy, life... yea, that!

love

love broke them when they were searching for it...

and surprisingly that's how they found each other,

i suppose that was how they clicked as well,

2 people from different background and an obvious language barrier

love helped mend their broken hearts,

and may be thats how things works out sometimes...

through looking for love, they fought, lost their battle, and found love on the way to recovery..

i dont know what is the status of their relationship...

i can only assume cause i have no rights to ask,

but whatever it is, i wish them both happy.

i wish him happy, and her as well

:)

when i tell myself i'm gonna study

1) get out of my bed

2) checks facebook and twitter

3) see/look/read some interesting things from those 2 websites

4) wasted a few minutes on those websites

5) feels a lil tired (eyes) so go back to the bed for a "take 5"

6) repeat step 1 to 5 for 200 times

7) FINALLY, gets out of my bed, and keep repeating this very line to myself

"I WILL NOW GO DOWNSTAIR WITHOUT STOPPING IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER"

and guess what peeps, this is just the first part :P

its a whole different chapter when i get my arse downstair, one that include:

1) no snacking

2) no looking for things (cause somehow i'll always end up upstairs, AGAIN then refer steps 2 to 5)

3) no piano

yesh, i am THAT good when it comes to disciplining myself