i like this saying, u ROCK Monroe! =P

I'M
dead beat

dead tired

i just wanna sleep through this week

wake up when excel is over
i think i'm ill =/

daddy may be able to BAN the computer, but he definitely cant ban me from playing the piano xP [which is actually a bad thing]
i wonder if he can lock it..hmmm~~~~ o.O

the wordings says it all

YESH! omg, like finally. i settled 2 things! =D
my script (thanks to en&adam) and and cancelled the St.John thing!!!!
whee~ GAWD, I REALLY NEED TO DITCH.ABANDON.THROW away that PROCRASTINATING attitude of mine!

not "you" tho, for a few people actually (:

I hate it when people compliment me. I never know how to reply. If I deny it, people say i’m just baiting. If I accept it, people say i’m up myself. The thing is, I honestly don’t believe in the nice things people say about me. Not a word of it.

well, truthfully. i dont hate it, no one hates getting compliments, thats just bull man, but i know for a fact that it does goes a lil awkward, and the rest of it, is pretty much FACTUAL.

true indeed

i LIE to get out of trouble
i SMILE cause it's easier that way
i CRAP cause i dont need to think
i TALK when it's necessary
i ASK when i want an answer
i PROCRASTINATE cause i'm too lazy
i LOL out of habit
i HAHA to not make situations so tense
i LISTEN cause i care
i KEEP myself busy, cause i dont like not having anything to do
i LIKE cause love is too deep to be understood
i PRETEND to not know, cause i dont want things to get awkward
i SKIP people sometimes, but its not on purpose
i DISLIKE cause hate is a strong word
i LAUGH to cheer myself up

but sometimes u JUST CANT find it! =(

Day 10 →
Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

hmm~ currently no one i can think of.
may be i'll update THIS, when i think of someone =P

Day 09 →
Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

err, close friends, real tight, considerably best friends of mine.
sucks, but happens all the time. sorry peeps, no names too =P
may be if u ask me personally i'll tell xD MAYBE.

a quickie update:

today started out as GREAT.
ends up with a NOT SO AWESOME.

now trying to finish up 1000001 thing =/
havent study for excel
feels bad&guilty for not being able to do a task given to me
i FEEL like SHYT

another late friday night&uberly early saturday morning.
yay, just the way i LOVE it~ [note:the put on enthusiasm&unfiltered sarcasm ]

i should learn how to say "no"
yea, pretty much thats it.

p/s: goodluck to those people involved in the theater thingee (: dont worry peeps, u guys will do well =) chillax&remember to breathe~

well, i obviously didnt go to school today. cause there's nothing to go for, they're having pendaftaran semula(which is absolutely pointless for me to go since our class teacher himself is not even in) and the sports thing is still going on, so no classes to that & weather is asking to continue sleepingggg. i wonder who's not in today tooo. sorrry ely, i'll bring the slacks for you tomorrow~~~

coool, just looked at the time and it shows 8:28am, 28/10/10 =P

anyways~ all i remember doing yesterday was sleeping xD not the kind of sleep that u wont wake up, in fact i felt like i was awake the whole time, just you know....nap, wakes, goes to bed, wake for dinner, goes to bed. YEA, like that.

dang it! me papa got a new handphone, nokia, express music, touchscreen T.T i wanttttt~ =/ how come every1 BUT ME has awesome awesome phone =(

and and THE COOLEST thing ever! my sis&i seems to have this unexplainable thing..like everytime i dont go to school of course the 1st thing i do is to persuade her not to go too. thing is sometimes, she gives in & sometimes she wouldnt budge. and usually when that happens, she would go to school in a perfect condition and comes back in an hour or so claiming she has diarrhoea or some shyts =P hahahah! coincidence much? ;)

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

I really don’t care if you’re gay, straight, black, asian, middle eastern, christian, atheist, agnostic, upper class or lower class. I don’t care if you dress from clothes from A&F or from the church donation box. I don’t care if you are skin and bones or if you weigh 300 pounds. I honestly don’t care if you are the quiet girl, play video games all day, or are stoned more often than you’re not. If you treat others with the utmost respect and kindness, you deserve my respect in return.

think about what you're doing

I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems. I believe people should not be judged before one takes the time to get to know them, yet I am guilty of doing that exact thing. I prefer rainy, cloudy days to sunny ones. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me. Take it or leave it.

The best feeling in the world is to be loved for who you are!

this is pretty much my mood for this whole week&last week.
excluding today, since i'm not in school
actually, now that i think bout it, this is pretty much my mood whenever i'm in class

Day 08 →
Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

hahah! i'll just give abbreviations >.<
SQD!
KKH!
YJJ!
GCL!
NLN!
tho, some of em only like a certain period of time laaaa

You have your way. I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist.

agrees!
no right or wrong, its all based on one's view&perspective :)

IF and ONLY if, that is a sincere smile.
NOT a fake, put-on smile.

you know that feeling you get when you get something done.
sense of accomplishment.

ITS A REALLY GREAT FEELING TO HAVE.
makes you feel like you can accomplish anything.
:)


_____________________________________________________________

dumb blond xD

Day 07 →
Someone who has made your life worth living for.

my family&friends

hahah! dissapointed much for no names? xP

OMG! i LOST the PINK paper!!!!
the most important PINK paper that i ever owned!!!
omgomgomgomgomg. *DIES*

the picture says it all and i admit, even i changed

*likes*
hahahah! ajaran sesat nie bha xP

Day 05 →
Something you hope to do in your life.

hope to make a difference in people's life (the good kind of impact of course)
be successful,rich&HAPPY =P
travel around the wordl!! (:
finish my to-do list before i die (not that i have the list YET)

AGREE. to the CORE.

just reached home, communication+transportation problem. SIGH~ hate it when that happens. owe bernice one~ thanks nice, for lending me the oh-so-very-important-yet-illegal-invention.

so tired today~~~ and i swear i got two tones darker =/ all thanks to Mr.Sun and his F.O.C rays for 2 and a half hours! T.T

saw them theater ppl practice, pretty amazing (: like the choir part~ cools with all the awesome tones&pitch and voice!

THIS is actually pretty true,
the world is small, almost everybody knows everybody
science is inter-related. this affects this and thus causes this
history shows us the past which obviously shapes the present and will affect future
interesting

sis's cooking dinner tonight since i was too lazy to crawl out of the sofa&cook, was actually surprised when she goes "ok" on me tho, doesnt happen everyday man. hahaha. but from the sound that she cooks (since i wasnt allowed in the kitchen, cause just by looking i may tell her what to do and stuff) i would say it sounded prettyyy..........NEWAYS~
GB me&mummy =P

hahahah! and its funny how almost the entire class does the same tooo! :D

Day 04 →
Something you have to forgive someone for.

i already forgive/forgave my mum who doesnt spend much time with us (:
this guy who calls me .......... since it happened like 6 years ago
ely for ditching me half the time T.T hahaha, lawl, forgave her already la :)
lyds for moving 20,000 miles away =_______= [yesh lyds, i know, apology accepted ;P]

i miss it so VERY VERY much.
i wish i had a time machine, i wanna WATCH my childhood over again.
watch my stupidity, simplicity, naivete

dedicated to yapyap WHO unfortunately does not read my blog.
PFFFFTS~
poor dude, cares so much and yet he puts on a facade and pretends like he doesnt :(

=)

congrats ELY for being the captain for RUSTED (sports house) and to jacqs, evon, aaron, yap, johnson, raman, kong(if i'm not mistaken) and others (which hopefully i didnt miss any names) for being sports captains&co-captains for other houses :) [the different colours represent the colour of the sport houses]

sigh~ i cant study, i dont have the mood for it, every time i open my book i just stare at the words,numbers,equations,whatevers for like 20minutes & thats all i do, STARE.
all thats in my head now is holidays,play,fun,holidays. too much stuff going on too that causes me to lose my focus&concentration. cant concentrate.
i dont even wanna look at my books (yeh, its THAT bad) and excel is in 8 days time =/

i need this mind-clearing ability to
1) study
2) SLEEP

lawl! rupert grint WAS soo cute few years ago :D
and now he just look.......
(no offense grint's fans)

real fun tho :) de-stress!

EVERY single thing, happens for a reason (: usually a good one too, no matter how bad it seems

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

for being guilty for every lil thing (improve a lot already actually)
lose contact with some of me friends =(
accidentally killed a bird when i was young =O [it was out of good intention, i was trying to save it butt yeaahhhh~ shyts happen]
missing all the deadlines for applying scholarship(after spm) as i was in brunei.....

just cause its RETARDEDLY-funny! =P

ANYWAYS~ i just came back from teh movies! :D watched the perfect wedding, it was awesome!!! :D fuhreakin hilarious and kinda sad. like tiny eety bitty part only laa >.< lam fung is still as hawt as ever ! :P nyehehehhe~

i think that was my first time going into the cinema's WITHOUT popcorn&drinks aka combo6 =O and and and i feel so empty&different >.< bad feeling
why no combo6? cause it was a rush movie, like we went there and just picked a movie and went in the cinema, heck there was even barely any seats left! and we were kinda late but luckily movie haven't started ;) so yeaa~

awkward situation: simply sitting on seats as u were late, full house, pretty dark,everyone stares at you and there are empty seats near ur seats (which is obviously NOT ur seats) then sat down. a few minutes later, strangers comes up to you, shows ticket and ur sitting on his seat. LAWL. and the guy next to you, is sitting on your seat. double LAWL. (okay, crap times overrr~) ;)

i JUST realised i've been watching QUITE a lot of chinese movies in cinemas lately o.O
nyehehehheh~

all the time man, all the time.
isn't this like a girl thing? ;)

just came back(actually few hours ago) from sutera for badminton and literally LOITERING around the area with jacqs, ivan, satya, roger&kong han (: well at least i feel slightly healthier, its been a long time since i last exercised~
thanks jacqs&rogie for the invite! ;)

neway~ gtg now, have to pick mum's friend up from the airport & brainstorm for "how to kill time" from 7pm-1am hahah! xP may be we'll go for a LONG DINNER then catch a movie ;) that ought to kill some time. right? but what movie? hmm~

ciaos world =D

Day 02 →
Something you love about yourself.

err~ i adapt quickly to my environment (but this doesnt mean i like changes)
my relationship with my IMMEDIATE family members especially my lil sis =P eventho she can be such a biatch sometimes.
my fast-paced-and-wittiness-for-getting-out-of-shits brain, which gets me out of trouble (saved my OWN ass for so many million times) xP

:)

i just
DEACTIVATED MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT.
idk why i did it, just felt like it, woke up and that was the first thing i did. INSANE much?

i dont know how long i'll be gone too, may be i'll be back in a couple of hours, may be a few days? when holidays starts (which is a next month). no idea. i feel so sudden, deactivate on an impulse.so random.so unstable. i wonder whatsup =(

so anyways~ the only way that u can reach me IMMEDIATELY is through phone (smsing/texting/calling) LAWL. but then i may not ALWAYS reply, since m often out of credit =/ but then, u can always ask me to go on msn xD especially urgent cases =P

not so immediate ways: =P
through the chatbox that is found in my blog (cause i think i'll continue with blogging and all)
then others are, skype&msn(which i dont think i'll on that often too) and
emailing me.

Every person has 1000 wishes, a cancer patient only one: to get better. I know, that 97% will not reblog this post, be one of the 3% and reblog this, for those who died because of cancer or are still fighting it

support breast cancer month! raise SOME freakin awareness! T.T

LOL!

DAY 1-

this may sound real dumb, but i somewhat, sometimes hate myself for
talking too much.
not understanding myself, feelings and all. BLAH
being in denial/avoiding facts&truths.
my language problem!!! i should talk nicely and less cussing and all >.<

:(

I'm up for a challenge (since i've been tagged)=P
BUT no promises on finishing it

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

cause if it is, why do u cause so much problems for me?
and if its not, why do i still want u as my friend?
-___________-

i think,
i'm starting to not be so scared of driving anymore :)

tomorrow's plan:
exercise, exercise and shopping :D wheeeee~~~~~
now, where to fit the studying? o.O

dang, i think that ass(nickt) deleted his fb WITHOUT even telling me! RAWR! T.T

hahah! cause everyone else has shittier shits xP

When you call a girl fat or ugly, it’s engraved into her mind. Every insult will stay with her forever, reminding her that she’s worthless, disgusting, and unloved. Her mind will be programmed to put herself down, to hate herself and her body. Call her pretty? She’ll remember it for a moment. Call her ugly? She’ll never forget it. Because she’s a slave to the pain that you never even thought about.

this is really true. so true. even if she grows up pretty, and 20,000 people tells her that, she STILL doubts it.

]and forget the world, life.
stay under the tree, away from reality.

No, i do not get 100 likes on my profile pictures. I don’t buy expensive clothes. My grades are not perfect. I have bad hair days. My friends and i don’t always get along. I feel like giving up sometimes. I’m sorry i’m not perfect. There’s a toy store right there. Go ahead and get yourself a Barbie.

Student vs. Teacher

Teacher: If there are any idiots in this class, stand up.

Student: *stands up*

Teacher: Now, why are you an idiot?

Student: I'm not, I just hate seeing you standing up there alone

ahahhah! so dumb! =P

How to love yourself.

• Fall in love with yourself.
• Eliminate self criticism.
• Be kind & positive.
• Acknowledge your effort.
• Let go of worry.
• Trust yourself.
• Forgive yourself.
• Be truthful to yourself.
• Grow spiritually.
• Make positive affirmations everyday.
• Express gratitude.
• Nurture your dreams.
• Boost your self confidence.
• Relax.
• Have fun.
• Look after your body.
• Learn to see beauty.

i think everyone needs to love themselves!

tried and it sucks BAD, not gonna touch it ever again.
choked&nearly got myself killed. no people, i am NOT suicidal =P

HOME SWEET HOME


FINALLY, home at last! :) after few days away from home, i can't believe i miss home so much but then it somewhat feels like i've never left o.O strange..hahah! neway, everyone will be coming home today, except daddy =( he's coming back tomorrow =)

anyways, i think i better stop wasting my PRECIOUS time and start finishing up stuffs that i wasnt able to do since i wasnt home ~~

geez woman! STOP procrastinating

and dang it! i just knew that the MUET speaking for this exam is going to be tomorrow! =O screwed! and i'm not gonna be with my original teammates =/ hope everything goes well tomorrow *cross fingers* >.<

A person who has GOOD THOUGHTS can’t ever be ugly. You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and a stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely.

true indeed :)

freaky!! =O