i know i just wrote a post 5 mins ago

hey! m back...i've realised i missed out a few things while writing and i am just too damn lazy to edit it and partly because if i have more post lydia cant complain! wakakak~ btw~ thanks boon, cause of you spamming question, i realise i missed out sooo many news!~ =D

first of all, my school its in a disastrous state. gah! it would be so helpful with a picture now... they block the stairs with those CSI tapes but its like red and white colour..gah!~ nevermind if you dont understand me but the point is they block the stairs cause i think that place is gonna crash anytime soon. well it looks like >.< ooowh~ dangerous. oh yea~ did i fail to mention. it's on the third floor. so high...n you know gravitiy and ceiling.and tiny humans *dont wanna think about it*

then, chemistry paper 3 was like hell..if possible i dont ever wanna see that paper again. i mean what is double decomposition!!?? i swear i've never even heard of it and it's a "we have to plan out an experiment" question...friggin 17 marks.

i guess that's all..if anything else i'll update by editing here.hahahah

p/S~ nice picture lydia on your posts! wonder what'll happen if our beloved classmates esp class monitor sees it! hahah

eh~ err~ title it ask.hmm..

i swear any more decisions my brain will blow. btw~ i might go back to bru during June. brunei holiday time. i say MIGHT which means FAT CHANCE ok not that fat but yea. i've decided that if my dad's driving then i'll go..see where does the fat comes from. cause i think he's gonna be quite bz n all so nyehhh~~~
even if i go back, i'll just go for this course which is cool~ and m planning to drag plp to go with me =) yay!~ my sis just wanna go back to buy comics so i'm friendless..ok dat sounds so depressing..is it me or the way i type today is like detach and ...ok fine m speechless and m blaming it all on the exams!!!

sleeps a lot lately! i guess this has something to do with exam and how your brain cell tends to die, u noe overthinking. it's like a killing spree in there well you wouldnt know would you. so i sincerely apologise to me frens cause i tend to doze off while smsing. woops~ T_T soo yea..realllllllllyyyyyyyyyyy soriiieeee >.<

winn!!~ m dying to get u on9..i need a cbox and and and there's no1 who know how to put it on. actually they do but my page like cacat sikit. so need your help...miss u lots too..wonder how u doing now =)

now that i think about it i haven't heard from simmy n vivi too lately..may b I'm the one who seldom on these days..hmmmm

o yay!~ i finish a post..now off i go..lalalal~~ have a nice day everyone =D

food poisoning

which is why i did not go to school today. a thursday. the day when i have two major papers to take. add maths and chemistry. someone just shoot me. hahahah! jK =) i know i'm like sooo not suppose to be online but who cares. i'll study my physics later xD

oh yea~i guess my sis and i ate something and so yea~ both of us are POISONED. this must be a real bad case or may be i've just never got poison beofre. i cant tell cause i'm sure constant stomach ache which i havent felt for a long time feels terrible and sis vomited. hers was probably more serious than mine.

yea~ obviously this is a really boring post. but today was a great day overall =) oh yea! i have an MC its a first =D

today~~

i know right! such an interesting title xP hehe..anyway. here am i sipping green tea while thinking of what to type actually i do know what to type but starting is just so hard for me. hmm~

oh yea~ when i say green tea i literally meant tea leaves that are green. hahaha.

so here i am onlining though i said I'll try not to since exam is like 3 days away. sigh~ couldn't resist temptation. i mean come on who can? i didnt go to school today cause it was MAPEC(majlis anugerah pelajar cemerlang) and i didn't get any award this year which is like depressing cause it's like the first time ever since i entered the school that I'm not getting any cash so instead of going to that function, sitting with the crowd staring at people getting award and listening to the never ending speeches. i decided to stay at home and sleep till 11am! which i did! what an accomplishment. i feel sooo proud of myself now. i rarely get to sleep past 10 T_T
ooh!~ just got an sms that they are giving Friday& Saturday off too =D yay!

so yea~ as i was depress(exaggerated) and all i told my mum about it and suggest that she should bring me for karaoke or something. AGAIN...just for cheering up myself purposes.dont go to karaokes...lawl~ and so the conversation goes like this

me: mum, u know the mapec thing this year i don't get any cash n all so you should bring me to pub or karaoke or the movies.
mum: *looks at me* y are we celebrating?
me: we're not celebrating =.= its a I'm so down so u should bring me somewhere to take my minds off things
mum: why do we have to go to pubs n karaokes?
me: gah! nevermind i think I'll just go to sleep. goodnight (and so i left)

see how they tends to go BESIDES the point and OUT-OF topic. yea~ same goes to my dad too. no wonder i'm like that too..haha~ the genes xP
oh yea heres an example convo on how my dad spontaneously reply with less than 5 words~

(we were talking bout my driving class which have not started yet, and he was giving all kinds of tips. btw~ he was driving me back home from tuition)
me: how fast can i drive when i get my license?
dad: 50km/hr
me: what??!! so slow.
dad: well~ you are still a new driver, better safe than sorry.
(here's where the spontaneously reply, without repetition and with less than 5 words starts)
me: 60?
dad: ok
me: 70?
dad: no problem
me: 80?
dad: sure
me: 90?
dad: as you like
me: 100?
dad: up to u
me: i thought u say only 50km/hr and yet when i say 100 you're like ok with it.
dad: i suggested 50 but more than that make sure u dont bring any passengers.
me: =.=llll

and so i shut up and went to open the gates.

dont give me that look~

you will so understand my title after u read a few sentences after this.

i did not go to the driving law class! cause well~ my friend didn't confirm whether she wants to go or not AND so i postpone it to next week. which i'm sure by next week i would have find someone to go with me =) scary wahh!~ going alone. u cant blame me. its an unfamiliar place with strangers. why did my cousin went and not tell me TT_TT why oh why oh why~ may be he went with his friends =.=

that's why i'm sitting in front of the computer at 7.19 ON a sunday, blogging. sad huh~ i cant go back to sleep =(

lyrics and poems

this is like a total random poem, which i wouldnt call it a poem,
actually i refuse to call it a poem cause poetry is emo. i mean not that i'm being a prejudice or anything but its sooo not me, that's all i'm saying.
so yea~ i was dozing off during history class(we were having a test) and i practically finished my paper when the words suddenly came to me and i felt that i soo have to write it down so yea, here you go~

Is it you? and is it me?
or is there another somebody.
I close my eyes so i can really see,
in your heart is there a place for me.

Ever since I met you, I'm always in a daze,
Have i really become a _____-craze?
This feels so much like a wild goose chase.
Figuring it out is worse than being in a maze.

Tears in my eyes says it all,
I really wish i've never made that call.
It's really over between you and me
and the last thing i want is you coming to beg and plea

hey at least it rhymes. =)
Lydia made me, more like she dared, bribe...i demand my free ice-cream now! T_T


i dont know why but suddenly just feel like posting this song's lyrics, weird huh..must be the happenings lately..hahah~so if you dont mind guess who sang this song and what's the song title =P

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

gah! scerwd up life!!

seriously these TENSIONS must so be released..i feel like I'm about to blow anytime soon.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MY EMAIL???!!! i went online and wants to check on my mails~ the usual.. and it frigging said:

You don't have an inbox...yet

WTH! is dis some sort of prank? a joke??! not funny!!! i have important emails there.. not that i run a corporate business but I HAVE..i repeat..UBERLY IMPORTANT EMAILS IN THERE! THERE!!! that friggin non existent inbox!! YESH! i am soo pissed off! stress-out! i feel like stabbing someone, jump off a cliff. whatever! and seriously when i mean IMPORTANT i mean it. not some love-letter important. it's the air tickets important kind.
see~ m so screwed. my life is officially over. how do i break it to my parents. i dont wanna pay for their tickets TT_TT and what if they need to refer back when their credit cards bill came.
i shall hereby leave all my gizmo to my sister and books to my friend lydia. wish to donate all my organs to the needy and lastly to be cremated.

i seriously wish and hope that my email comes back tomorrow. like what a friend just said, may be the internet or whatever is the one having problems.

not only that my exam is two weeks away~ i seriously need to study but i cant get enough sleep, luckily we have unimportant&boring subjects which allows me to doze off half the time. see~ exactly why we should love English class =D but not the weird english teacher.

actually those two arent the only things that screwd up my life. there are worst but prefer not to state it in the blog as everyone knows~ BLOG IS A PUBLIC THING. oh well~ till here then.


btw~ happy birthday simmy =) sorry its a lil late.
btw~ i heard of the news.. if you need someone to talk to, m always here. k. i promise that even if its 4am i would go online if u want me to. and anything just sms me. PLS dun keep it all to urself! you are not a burden or watsoever. not telling me will make me feels like shit or crap or whichever way u wanna put it. all the best to u.

busy busy me

its April~ our government exam is on November and my teacher who i have no idea what her brain is made of said "they started tuition class so late, its suppose to start during February or march" oh oh! did i forgot to mention! my tuition class schedule?~ cause it goes like this.

Monday-Thursday~ till 3pm
Friday~ till 4pm
we sometimes have class on Saturdays
extra curricular activities is on every alternate Saturdays.
statement of the day: it's not easy to be a student.

then i have tuition everyday except for Thursdays and Sundays. BUT now i'll have driving classes on Sundays.
so yea~ its like i totally have no time what so ever. so the only time i can go online is on Saturday nights so catch me if you can~ lalalala~~~ xP if not sms or send off9 messages xD

oh yea! back to driving. heheh! yay!!! m gonna learn soon. next week......i so cant wait *excited* though i heard its quite boring at first BUT oh well~ that's the first step. my mummy and daddy so cannot wait for me to drive so that they can dump all the "driving responsibility" to me. that includes driving me & my sis to school and tuition whatsoever so that they can go for their like 100th honeymoon. T_T good for them.

working under pressure is not so bad, in fact i guess it's the only way i can study properly. weird huh. =.= is it me or its just form5 cause I'm so frigging pumped up to study! hahah~ gawd! m such a nerd. NOT. actually I'm just a girl on mission. i guess i did slacked a bit too much when i was in form4. hehe..

I've decided to update my blog like at least once a week, hehe....seriously planning to DISOWN(a new word i learnt from lyd) lawl! my "laziness" though i don't think attitude can be disown but who cares! ehehehe.