changes.

changes. it's sad. it's depressing. it might be a good thing to someone, bad to another. some might like/adore it, others hate it/despise/loathe it. it's another "something in life" that everyone has to go through. i guess facing these kind of things it's all about how one handle it.

2008, some greattt year. I felt like i'm about to lose 2 really great friends. no, make that i ALREADY lost one. i see symptoms on the second one. i really wish everything will go back to normal. like how we are before but nothing can ever stay the same. it's weird but it's hard to keep something the same but it's unbelievably easy to have something changed. when i first lost my first friend i was devastated(obviously an understatement cause it felt much much worse). The good news is that after several misunderstandings, a few months not talking and all. Finally we had a light-hearted talk that day. i know we'll never get back to how we are before but i guess i should be satisfied with this much.

i hope the second one wont turn out like the first. i seriously dont want to go through that again. Though i think that there will be a slight difference since they are both of different genders but still i dont wanna go through the pain of losing someone very important to me again.